joke glasses are extremely romantic
The other night I had this bad dream where this girl was mean and she was laughing at me and I asked her why and she said it was because she found it very extremely funny that I found the curves of her fathers baked goods to look like devil horns and all my friends were her friends now and they just kinda pretended that they couldn't see me or had nothing to do with it and I was really hurt and I was mad cus she was in my photography class but I had had no idea about it and also it turned out to be the big day where you have to have to hand in your portfolio or else something and no one had told me. I got really mad and I smashed a beer bottle and then all my ex friends were kinda like snicker snicker crazy drunk girl can't control her temper and I sat in this corner alone. Then someone came over and they gave me this little thing and told me it was contract of conditions I had to follow if I wanted them to be my friend and I wanted to sign it but inside was shiny plastic that you couldnt sign and they had wadded up an old chewed up peice of gum in there. I got so mad that I knocked over my desk which had all these ceramic art things and two tea kettles on it and then I was extra embarrassed and I sweeped it up and the peices of ceramic made the face of donatello from the ninja turtles and on the way out I was showing everyone. Oh yeah before all that happened in the dream there was a part where Nathan had made a new video and the premise of the video was like poor nathan he is so hard done by and then he was reduced to stripping in the video and it was supposed to be very boo-hoo/sexy and we were all trying to politely come up with a way to tell him that it was the gayest video ever made.
I have basically given up on going outside till spring. I have one daily adventure a.k.a. totally boring thing that I do which is walk to the coffee shop. I thought today's coffee shop trip was pretty exciting at first cus there was a guy there whom I decided to have crush on and we were kinda making eyes at eachother and I was like OH MY GOD THIS IS THE ROMANCE I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR! and I sat one seat away from him and I was thinking he was gonna start talking to me and and we were gonna fall in love maybe, but then this obnoxious bitch who had been annoying me with her purpleish lipstick and millions of questions about the mochacinnos sat between us with her boyfriend and continued her obnoxiousness. Then he got up and went to the bathroom and I decided he looked weird standing up and that I didnt want to fall in love with him anyway.
Okay the past couple of days I feel extremely ambitious. I am really excited to start attempting stand up, and I want to make some movie skit things and I want to knit a million hats. I just have such a hard time actually getting anything done. The stand up is just scarey as hell because you have 5 minutes in which you have to be funny. Also I feel like no one will take me seriously and whatever, I'm just scared of it and everything I write seems stupid. Movie, is just whatever I need help with that and hats is just I ran out of the right colour.
I still haven't dranken anything making it grand total 5 DAYS which is the longest no drinking I've gone for since ever. Maybe the ambition is sober related, I dunno, I'm drinking Friday tho.
p.s. I am frustrated as hell because all I want is very simple blog lay-out where I can pick my own colours and backgrounds and a banner but this keeps on fucking looking retarded in different browsers. I looked at templates but I don't want them or don't know how to change them. Please help me! |
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