knitted graves for sad drunk slaves
So it's a good thing that this is my third time blogging today because I have been up since 8 and the opinion of the day is everything sucks. I was talking last night about really actually getting out of the hours I work and the 11-4 drinkfest it entails and I was kinda feeling non-commital about it all but now today I am desperate like I want it more than anything. I just want a shitty day job selling bread or ironing clothes. I feel this weird dread at going into work like it is doomsville or something. I turn weirdo panicy when I realise I can't stand my lifestyle, like I'm suffocating in booze clouds. Once upon a time I lived in a house with my friend James and people came over all the time and we all smoked too much pot and we were all stupid and our house was a mess and I became obsessed with wanting to nail select items to the floor and flooding the rest of contents of the house away. I also became obsessed with picking up my cat and running away and living with him in the woods, that and BEING REBORN. I was full on okay I fucked up my life, the solution is easy: GET REBORN. Whatever I am ridiculous and also not embarrassed of myself when I should be.
Oh one part of my drunken cryfest last night was me crying because one of the comedians made a joke about how no one would like to have me for a wife on account of them having to hear my laugh ( my laugh is this kind of loud as hell ear peircing two part cackle) and it added to my crazy shame spiral because my drunken cryfests are always about NOBODY CAN LOVE ME!
Whatever, I should be eating more salmon oil.
Anyway, I just tiny cheered up because I just got a call for an interview to bartend at the airport which would be an awesome combo of making money without working in a green house that grows alcoholics. This is me saying that I will get that job for sure.
p.s. That is a picture of booze and salmon oil duking it out over control of my brain. Umm I realise that salmon oil isnt exactly an inner demon really but it's funny to say. Just showing off my special-ness. |
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